Just a little over a month ago, the love of my life got down on one knee and asked me to spend forever with him. (still gives me goosebumps!) These really and truly are such happy times! But even before the engagement, I started to feel…. well…sort of like a…. nomad. Yes, I said it, a NOMAD! (def.: any wanderer; itinerant.)

With wedding plans and ideas spinning in my head like a treadmill on speed 10 running 24/7, constantly dashing in and out of my parents house going from one thing to the next, trying to nurture and grow my relationship with my Lord, my fiancé and my family; life has quickly become extremely chaotic, many times leaving me feeling scatter-brained, worn out and weary.

I don’t know if I am the only one on this planet who has felt this way before, but I just don’t feel like I “belong” anywhere. Don’t get me wrong, I have a wonderful family and parents who have loved and continue to love me unconditionally…..so why do I feel SO ready to move on and create my very own space to call my own??? (When I say it out loud, it sounds rather selfish….ok, VERY selfish!)

Instead of listening to my own unfiltered thoughts, I need to preach to myself the truths of scripture, meditate on them, and change more course of action….easier said than done! So, as my life is changing and my small little room begins to close in on me, I need to take a deep breath, praise the Lord for the things I have and the family he has blessed me with, and decide to “embrace the chaos.” For this too shall pass.

Taking a deep breath, keeping the WORD close to my heart, and ready to begin a new day!