And just like that we are halfway there!

Now that we have entered into the 2nd trimester “life is beautiful” stage, the days don’t tick by quite as slowly. I’m grateful for that. I’m also grateful for this entire process. It has stretched me ( in more ways than one) and grown me in ways I’ve never experienced and I’m thankful.

Last week we had our 20 week (give or take) ultrasound, and my heart could have exploded! We hadn’t seen this little one since week 6 and my mamas heart was desperate for another peak. I could have stared at that monitor all day long, willing our little peanut to know how in love his/her mommy and daddy already are. Our babe has no idea the celebrating that took place in the Dr.s office that day. Every body part was cause for fresh celebration. The arms, legs, heart chambers, brain development, blood flow, and don’t even get me started on that beautiful profile!

 

 

“I see you little one and call you beloved!”

If I could tell our babe one thing, it would be the above. Even at this stage in our parenthood journey, the unconditional love pours out of my being. Just a beautiful reminder to me of how the Father loves. Yet His love is eternally greater than my own capacity to love. He sees me and knows my every thought, my every desire, my every shortcoming, my every sin; and loves, loves, loves, anyway.

I’m undone at the thought.

I so badly want to hold onto every step of this journey, to embrace each of the milestones and changes. I am beyond excited and thrilled to meet this little one face to face, skin to skin, but I don’t want to wish away the process in the middle. There is so much joy to be discovered along the way. First the revelation of two pink lines, seeing the heartbeat and then hearing it, watching my belly grow, feeling our baby move, seeing our baby move…the process is absolutely astonishing! I don’t want to take any of it for granted, yet in moments I find myself forgetting just how immeasurably blessed I am to hold this wee one. Every minute I have to hold our babe is an undeserved grace. Thank-you LORD!

I will continue to speak life over this child.

Of course as a parent, I want the very best for his/her life. I want to be the protector, caregiver and love bestower. But more than that, I desire God’s best for this beautiful life growing. As much as I want to be all the things to my little one, deep down I want HIM to be all. In speaking life over this little one, I proclaim God’s promises over their life, and surrender my desire to control it all. I say things like, ” I love you sweet one, but God, He loves you eternally greater.” Aside from doing and eating the things I know to be beneficial and healthy as I carry this babe, the very best thing I believe I can do, is to soak in the life and love of Christ and speak it over this child.

His child.

So, here I am 20 weeks and counting…Lots of growth taking place around here, and even more surrender.

Thankful and overwhelmed in the best way possible.

 

Lindsey Joy