To the little one my heart desires and remembers,

Today was your due date, the day we would have been expecting you, anticipating your arrival. A day bound to be filled with joy and celebration.

Instead, today is the day I remember you again. The life, your life, that I carried for 6 weeks, until you were passed on to your heavenly father’s embrace. As I have anticipated this day, knowing we wouldn’t meet you face to face, but rather remember your life and the impact it has made in my heart, your daddy’s heart and the hearts of those around us, I have prayed for His grace covering. For closure, and peace.

Our God, is indeed such a good good Father. He has covered this mama’s heart in ways that leave me in awe. Yesterday in church, on Mother’s day, a day that my heart will always miss you, I sang the words “it is well” those words were my proclamation of closure. Yes, I long for you and miss you, but ultimately my heart longs for God, for His will and His sovereignty. The hard eucharisteo.

Because of the hope I have in Christ, my Savior, today is not a day of sadness, but of hope. Today His mercies are new again, and I’m so thankful for that. I’m thankful for what this season of hard has taught me and continues to teach me. I’m thankful for the blessings that have surfaced since you have been gone. But the unexpected blessings and joys will never completely remover the ache in my heart, which longs for you, you will forever be loved and missed my dear one. Thank you for the impact you have made and the mother’s heart that you grew in me. You are forever in my heart and I will always remember you.

Love always and forever,

your mommy.